Almost dragged into the darkness

About 3 weeks ago I went through another surgery. The night before that I had a strange experience again.

It began in the same way as it always does;

I was dreaming when I suddenly found myself in that darkness again. I could feel that a warm and strong hand took my right hand and tried to drag me into the darkness. I fought against it, but then I felt that "someone else" was pooking me in my waist. That damn pooking that have haunted me since I was child! I got so afraid. It was as if one of them was dragging me in to the darkness and the other one was tickling me so I had hard to fight back. It was scary, I couldn't see anything! Then finally I managed to get released and wake up.

Can anyone explain this for me? Why is it always completly black when I experience these things? I can only FEEL with my whole body, that something strange is going on. And that it isn't just a dream.

I have felt my body locked up in some kind of metal chair (about 3 years ago) and it was like "someone" told me (telepathy) not to fight against it - or I would feel more pain.

I have also felt metal sticks put up in my upper mouth (2008/09). When I began pulling them out, stick by stick, it was as if I passed out. As if I wasn't supposed to be aware of what was going on. Since then I have 3 bulbs in my upper mouth.

It's always in this black reality where I cannot see anything - or anyone! It's very intense but short. It feels like the experience don't even last for a minute.

---
For the first time ever, I have now more visitors from Russia than USA. Looks like you guys are very interesting in this kind of stuff :-) 

Love Bite Video

Panel discussion with Eve Lorgen, James Bartley, Laura Leon, Bernhard Guenther, Tom/Montalk, Carissa Conti and Arella Eliora. 

I have followed Carissa's blog for some time and it is really interesting. In this video Clarissa and the others discuss the role of alien, black op, demonic and interdimensional entities in manipulating human love relationships. Their motivations for doing so include energy feeding, experimentation, genetic pairing, mind control handling, and suppression of spiritual awakening. They also mention red flags to observe and how to deal with these forces.

Related
Cause of Epidemic of Autism

Nadine Lalich's experiences

Today I found this interesting video with Nadine Lalich:

Seems like we share many experiences:

• She describes the feeling of one alien touching her back/spine, something that I have experienced many times. It feels like my back/spine is my weakest body part when it comes to this kind of events. (I think it can work like some kind of portal.)
• She also have had "dreams" about airports with military personel and UFOs.
• She has had scars on her arms like me.
• Bleeding nose. (I got that during many nights as a child)
• She has also heard that humming sound. I had it in my old apartment.
• We both have had dreams about descruction and cathastrophes in the future.
• We see numbers like 1111 appearing on nearby clocks.
• We saw UFOs at the age of 16.
• We have had dreams about children. (But mine didn't look alien.)

While writing this post I have had beeping tones in my left ear...

The Arcons - feeding on our emotions

It's said that the gnostics warned us about the Archons a long time ago.  But who are they - the Archons?

The american author John Lash talks about the Archons as some kind of inorganic spieces, or energy form, that cannot live on Earth. But they are envy of us and they interfere in our lifes and feed on our fear. They are what we call "aliens", mind parasites that abduct our souls by night.

Another man who knows alot about the Archons is Robert Stanley.

When I heard about this the first time I felt that this could fit into my own experiences.

Remember what I wrote about"The Alien Council"? Something strange that I experienced dureing a hypnotherapy session. I was about beings who couldn't exist on Earth, but they wanted to observe our planet through me. Weird? Yes. And how about all my other strange experiences; the strange bruises, scratches, the beep tones in my ears, the hauntings in my home...? And all the extreme bad luck in my life? Someone, or something, must be behind all this.

”Man has a glowing coat of awarness which the predator eats,
leaving just the bare minimum of ”consciousness stuff” for man to remain physically live.
The predator ”milks” man through arranging for constant trouble and
crisis and senseless preoccupation, so as to generate flashes of awareness
that it then proceeds to eat.”

 

Related Links
Press Release from Robert M Stanley 
Red Ice Creations
Metahistory


 

What have they done to me!?

Since that last session at my therapist, when she removed that unpleasant energy ball (from my mum) I have felt so relieved and happy. But four days ago I had a new nightmare.

In the dream I visited some kind of underground aquarium with my daughter. We were in a huge, dark room and my daughter went across that room to look at another aquarium. But when I was going to follow her I walked in to black FOG! Everything went black and I couldn's see anything at all!

In the darkness something, with metal, held me so tight that I couldn't move. I felt as if I was in some kind of sitting/hanging position. I could feel hard metal under my armpits. It was painful. I could also feel hard metal in the hollow of my knees. As I tried to move I got more stuck and it became more painful. It was as if I was told mentaly that I shouldn't move - then it wouldn't be so painful. So I just sat/hung there, without moving. And then I don't remember anything more.

The next day I was so tired, and the happiness I had felt the days before was gone.

What happend?!! And why does this strange things keep on happening, again and again? Completly blackness, but I FEEL that something is going on around me. And I can feel that hard metal! But what kind of entites are doing this to me - and WHY!?

Am I just in some kind of evil experiment?
 

Hiding from intruders

Today I found some of my old diarys from 2004-2006, so I have spent hours reading them.

One of the things that surpriced me was what I wrote 3 days after my father had died, in 2005. I had almost forgotten it:

"This morning I woke up by a nightmare at 3:05 AM. I dreamed that I was a child again and it was night. I was standing in our living room. I heard the sound from a helicopter and it looked like its spotlights were searching around our windows. I got the impression that it was aliens, coming to get us. I ran into my parents bedroom, telling them not to open their eyes and that they should hide under the bed sheets. Then I crawled down between them. I could feel my fathers body on my left side and my mothers on my right side. Then I felt that "someone" came into the bedroom. I tried to scream: "Go away!!". But my mouth was paralysed, I couldn't scream. That's when I woke up."

I think this was the first time ever I wrote about aliens - and I had totally forgotten about that dream. Now it all came back.

It also reminds me of 2008-2009, when I lived in that haunted apartment - because I often heard helicopters during the night. I was just to tired to care about it. I never got up to look at them, I just guessed that it was police or ambulance helicopters.

Could that dream about the introuders be some kind of memory from an abduction in my childhood?

Black hooded figure

One of the scarriest things I have experienced is the event that took place in my bedroom in 1997, when I was visited by an evil black hooded figure. Now I understand that I am not alone with this kind of experiences.

I have written about the event here. 

Today I found Zack's story, at BUFOG Contact Case Reports: Merthyr Tydfil Contact Case

It seems like we are visited by lots of different aliens. But are they from another planet - or from another dimension? Or both?
 

Is this how "they" work?

Wow, this is my 100 post! :-) Something to celebrate maybe?

Well, watch this interesting video about aliens and abductions. Much fits in to my own experiences and thoughts about it:
 

Interesting abduction researcher

Have you heard about Ph.D David M. Jacobs? He is Associate Professor of History at Temple University specializing in twentieth century American history and culture. In the mid 1960's he began researching the controversy over unidentified flying objects in America.  Since 1973 he has continued to devote most of his professional and personal energies to researching the UFO phenomenon in general, and the abduction phenomenon in particular. He has conducted over 750 hypnotic regressions with over 125 abductees. Today Dr. Jacobs is one of the foremost UFO abduction researchers worldwide. As a result of his extensive primary research, he has developed the first scientific typology of the abduction experience.

Watch this!
 

 Update November 13th, 2013:
Today  at lunch time I watched another video with  David Jacobs, that my friend Sandra has written to me about. It was really disturbing what he talked about. 3-4 hours later I got a scratch mark on my left thumb. It's not often I get that now so I guess it's a connection to the video. I guess "someone" does'nt want me to dig into this... 

Harvesting of souls

About a year ago my friend Sandra told me about a strange experience she had during a hypnotherapy session; she had found lost souls in a cave. It was as if they were held as captures. I thought it was rather strange. How can you live without your soul? But then I remembered that the Shamans practice "soul retrieval"... so I guess we can loose our souls. But how?

Yesterday Sandra send me a mail. She had found a very interesting book, written by Nigel Kerner - "The harvesting of souls". Could that be what it's all about - the whole UFO thing? Is that their Agenda? Well, watch this:

Read more at www.nigelkerner.com

Did my mum see an alien orb?

Today I have been watching some videos at You Tube, called "UFO Hunters". Very interesting, especially those about UFOs and orbs.

They talked a lot about glowing orbs, often shown up in the mountains. And that it seems to be a connection between those orbs and aliens. It reminded my of an experience that my mother had told me about.

When my mother was young, I think it was during the 1940s, she climbed in the mountains, in the Alps. Once she stayed in a small cabin during some thunder storms and when she opened the door something that looked like a big ball of fire came right to her, through the door. She got so scared that she fainted. And when she woke up the ball was gone. Since that day she has been very afraid of thunder storms.

As long as I can remember my mother have had nightmares and been taking sleeping pills.When I did that "birth regression" with my therapist a year ago she said some really weird things that I have hard to believe. But it was about my mother, me and aliens.

Today I wonder if it maybe was some kind of alien orb that my mother saw that day in the mountains.
Maybe she have had some kind of alien connection all her life?

Also my father have been haunted by nightmares for many years. He is dead now but my mother told me that he often woke up in the middle of the night screaming that "they" where after him, trying to kill him... Did he dream about aliens maybe?

And then my brother. He also had lots of nightmares and was afraid of doctors. He was with me twice when I saw UFOs from our balcony in1977-78. He even took pictures of it.

Maybe my whole family have alien connections?

 

Beep signal after watching videos

Two days ago I watched this interesting video about abductions. When I went to bed I got real disturbing ringing in my right ear. This time it was almost impossible to "bounce it away", as I use to. I guess that mean that "they" didn't like that I watched this video.

Gosh! I am so tired of this. It happens everytime that I go out searching for information about aliens and UFOs  - or when I talk to others about alien stuff! A friend of mine have the same experience.



Here is another interesting video, about ringing in ears:

Movies like this really makes me scared

Today I found this clip at the blog Ufos and Alien Abductions i LA. I don't know why but I think this scene is very scary. Maybe because it reminds me of something?

In 1997-98 I had two scary experiences in my bedroom. They seemed so very real but I told myself it was only dreams. It wasn't untill recently that I understood that it must have been real experiences. I have written about it here.

I belive that I have had experiences like this when I was child. I remember feeling the presens of some kind of beeings in my bedroom and that I was very scarred. I tried to play dead. Once I woke up under my bed. I don't remember seeing anything, but some things came up during hypnosis last year.

Ufological researcher Karla Turner

The medicine and all the pain makes me so tired, so I can hardly sit by my computor. But today I plugged in my ear phones and went to bed where I listened to a very interesting video with Karla Turner. 

Dr Karla Turner (1947-1996) was an american Ufological researcher. I find her research very interesting, because I have experienced it myself. She too believed that some of the aliens seems to feed on fear. They try to scare you, but don't give them fear - fight back and show strength instead. That will help you.

It is said that Karla, who was in perfect health and had no genetic history of cancers of any kind, died 48 years old of an unidentifiable cancer on January 10, 1996. She had been repeatedly threatened and harassed because of her research.





Read more at Karla Turner Memorial

Ann Livingston was another abductee and MUFON investigator. She too died in cancer. A fast-acting form of ovarian cancer.


Update 30/6/2012:
Today I found this information on Clarissas site In2worlds (pdf-file, page 173):

"Death/injury threats and attempts To me, the most disturbing facet of all concerning alien/MILAB abductions concerns prominent researchers and authors being physically maimed during abductions, instilled with disease Part III – Expanded Insights 173 programming, or flat out being taken out. Cancer seems to be a biggie. Alien/MILABS researcher and author Karla Turner died prematurely of breast cancer. And in the book “Barbara: The Story of a UFO Investigator” she has this to say about the cancer programming: “I’ve made a wide circle of friends all across the U.S.A., most of whom were somehow involved with UFOs. Too many of them are dead or dying. Cancer seems the favorite method of ridding the world of nosy busybodies who want to known who and what the aliens are and where they came from and why they come here. Cancer is the answer to all their questions in far too many cases."

Since I began my research about aliens and UFOs in 2008 I have had a lot of problems; at work, with my home, financially, health issues - and strange hauntings. And now, before age 50 I have got a rare form of ovarian cancer. Just a coincidence or...?

My daughters dream

Me and my daughter are very close and we both have experienced strange paranomal things. We can also read each others minds. But somethings I get a bit worried about her.

A while ago I was reading an historical article, that night my daughter dreamed about the whole historical event that I had been reading about. She hadn't seen the article and we hadn't talked about it. I was stunned the next morning when she told me all the details from her dream.

Last night my daughter had a dream that she said felt so very real. She told me about a trip to outer space, to another sun with thousands of planets around. She told me that she had visited another planet where people looked much different and that she met some kind of "monster". She was showned lots of brothers and sisters, but that they weren't friendly anyone of them. She also told me about strange buildings and that there were huge difference in time - if we should go there.

So what was it? Just a dream or some kind of abduction? Or maybe astral travelling?

When I started to write this post that signal in my right ear came back, I could almost hear it because it was so weak. So, I am still under observation... no doubt about it. They just go on trying to find another frequency that I cannot hear. So, I guess it's not OK to write about this.

The same day as I wrote this post my daughter got 2 scratches on her hand. And today she got a long scratch mark on her left hand. Could it be because she told me about her dream, and that I wrote about it here? Like "someone" doesn't like us talking/writing about it. For me it's so obvious, they try to scare her. 

Interesting research about abductees

I have been thinking about this for a while now; about my relationships. My family is totally split up and I have no contact with anyone of them. I am divorced since many years but still I live alone with my child. I have a social job and met a lot of interesting people and I have my friends... But somehow it feels like "it's ment" that I shall be alone, that I shall not get involved in a new man. It's like something is stoping me. Like something doesn't want me to...

I have experienced many paranormal things during my life and some people says that I am probably an "abductee". Is that why I have this problem in my life?

Alien Love Bite - Eve Lorgen homepage

Have I been abducted?

I found this on a web site about abductions; a test that could indicate that you have been abducted :-) Well, here are my answers in blue.

Ask yourself if you . . .

1. Have had missing or lost time of any length, especially one hour or more.
Yes

2. Have been paralyzed in bed with a being in your room.
Yes, at least three times

3. Have unusual scars or marks with no possible explanation on how you received them. Especially if you have an emotional reaction to them. (i.e. small scoop indentation, straight line scar, scars in roof of mouth. in nose, behind or in ears, or genitals, etc.
Yes, I have had scratches, a triangular marking on my stomach, stickmarks on my foot, bulbs on hands and in roof of mouth. My daughter has 3 bulbs behind one ear.

4. Have seen balls of light or flashes of light in your home or other locations
No, not that I remember

5. Have a memory of flying through the air that could not be a dream.
Well, I have dreamed about flyging through the air...

6. Have a "marker memory" that will not go away (i.e.: alien face, examination, needle, table, strange baby, etc.)
Yes, I don't like alien faces and I am scared of knifes. I have dreamed about meeting children that not were mine, although they said so...

7. Have seen beams of light outside your home, or come into your room through a window.
No

8. Have had dreams of UFOs, beams of light, or alien beings.
Yes, I have had dreams about UFOs - but not about aliens

9. Have had a UFO sighting or sightings in your life.
Yes, three times and always with another witness

10. Have a cosmic awareness, an interest in ecology, environment, vegetarianism, or are very socially conscious.
Yes

11. Have a strong sense of having a mission or important task to perform, without knowing where this compulsion came from.
Yes

12. Have had unexplainable events occur in your life, and felt strangely anxious afterwards.
Yes,  especially since 2008

13. For women only: Have had false pregnancy or missing fetus. (Pregnant, and then not)
Well, I have experienced some problems here...

14. Have awoken in another place than where you went to sleep, or don't remember ever going to sleep. (i.e. upside down in bed, or in your car)
Yes, as I child I woke up under my bed once and thought it was very strange. Don't know how I got there.

15. Have had a dream of eyes such as animal eyes (like an owl or deer), or remember seeing an animal looking in at you. Also if you have a fear of eyes.
No

16. Have awoken in the middle of the night startled.
If "startled" means "scared"; my answer is yes

17. Have strong reaction to cover of Communion or pictures of aliens. Either an aversion to or being drawn to.
Yes!!!

18. Have inexplicably strong fears or phobias. (i.e. heights, snakes, spiders, large insects, certain sounds, bright lights, your personal security or being alone).
Yes, I don't like spiders and low frequency sounds.

19. Have experienced self-esteem problem much of your life.
Yes

20. Have seen someone with you become paralyzed, motionless, or frozen in time, especially someone you sleep with.
No, not that I know

21. Have awoken with marks, burns or bruises that appeared during the night with no explanation on how you could have possibly received them.
Yes, but most of the time I get them while I'm awake

22. Have had someone in your life that claims to have witnessed a ship or alien near you or has witnessed you having been missing.
Yes, I have had witness with me when I have been seeing UFOs

23. Have had, at any time, blood or an unusual stain on sheet or pillow, with no explanation of how it got there.
Yes, I had lot of problems with noose bleed when I was younger, and during 1997. My daugher has found a small blood mark on her night dress at her neck - but no wound at her skin...


24. Have an interest in the subject of UFO sightings or aliens, perhaps compelled to read about it a lot, or an extreme aversion towards the subject.
Yes

25. Have been suddenly compelled to drive or walk to an out of the way or unknown area.
Well yes, but not to an totally unknown are

26. Have the feeling of being watched much of the time, especially at night.
Yes, my daughter too

27. Have had dreams of passing through a closed window or solid wall
No

28. Have seen a strange fog or haze that should not be there
No

29. Have heard strange humming or pulsing sounds, and you could not identify the source.
Yes, but that was while I lived over an EMF-lab... and (I almost forgot) in 1998 when I got problems with my ears and had nausea.

30. Have had unusual nosebleeds at any time in your life. Or have awoken with a nosebleed.
Yes, many times in my childhood. My father have had same problem...

31. Have awoken with soreness in your genitals that cannot be explained.
Yes, I wake up feeling like a torpedo came in to my "behind" and travelled all the way up to my stomach. Real painfull! Happened twice during 2008-2009 when I had real problems with hauntings

32. Have had back or neck problems, T-3 vertebrae out often, or awoken with an unusual stiffness in any part of the body.
Yes, I have had neck- and back problems for many years

33. Have had chronic sinusitis or nasal problems.
Yes!

34. Have had electronics around you go haywire or oddly malfunction with no explanation (such as street lights going out as you walk under them, TV's and radios affected as you move close, etc.).
Yes

35. Have seen a hooded figure in or near your home, especially next to your bed.
Yes, in 1997

36. Have had frequent or sporadic ringing in your ears, especially in one ear.
Yes, as long as I can remember I have had it. Now I have started to block it out and it seems to work and since I started that the ringning had changed...

37. Have an unusual fear of doctors or tend to avoid medical treatment.
No, but I don't like dentists and I am afraid of knifes...

38. Have insomnia or sleep disorders that are puzzling to you.
Yes, I used to... but not now

39. Have had dreams of doctors or medical procedures.
Yes. In the 90is I tried regression, but nothing happended... until that night. I dreamed that a doctor was cutting in my arm and that I died. Was it in another life, I don't know... I have also dreamed about getting implants in my arm and needles put up in my upper mouth...

40. Have frequent or sporadic headaches, especially in the sinus, behind one eye, or in one ear.
Yes

41. Have the feeling that you are going crazy for even thinking about these sorts of things.
Yes :-)

42. Have had paranormal or psychic experiences, including intuition.
Yes

43. Have been prone to compulsive or addictive behavior.
Well yes, maybe addited to candy... :-)

44. Have channeled telepathic messages from extraterrestrials.
No

45. Have been afraid of your closet, now or as a child.
No, not afraid of my closet - because I had no in my room. But I was extremly afraid of darkness. My daughter was afraid of her closet during 2008-2009...

46. Have had sexual or relationship problems (such as a mysterious "feeling" that you must not become involved in a relationship because it would interfere with "something" important you must do).
Well, I am divorced... and I think I have given up thoughts about finding Mr Right...

47. Have to sleep against the wall or must sleep with your bed against a wall.
Yes

48. Have a difficult time trusting other people; Especially authority figures.
Yes

49. Have had dreams of destruction or catastrophe.
Yes, I have been dreaming about water, fire and darkness...

50. Have the feeling that you are not supposed to talk about these things, or that you should not talk about them.
Yes, but I don't care about that. If someone tries to stop me, I will just try harder :-) I always been like that.

51. Have tried to resolve these types of problems with little or no success.
Well, yes...

52. Have many of these traits but can't remember anything about an abduction or alien encounter.
Yes