Full moon and strange dream

A man came and visited me in my dream tonight. A tall man, almost looking like one of the statues in Persepolis. He was very angry and and he spoke to me in a strange language I have never heard before. I couldn't understand a word of what he said. But he scarred the shit out of me.

This was over in just seconds, at least it felt so. Then I woke up, wondering what the h_ll had happend. It took some time before I had calmed down so I could go back to sleep.

This reminds me of this event in 2013, when I was speaking to my friend in my cellphone. Suddenly the phone call was interrupted and I heard a strange and electronic voice screaming at me (very fast) in a language I could understand. If they are angry and want to tell me something, can't they at least talk to me in a way that I understand!?

Update:
After writing this post I got a scratch mark on my right hand.

Almost dragged into the darkness

About 3 weeks ago I went through another surgery. The night before that I had a strange experience again.

It began in the same way as it always does;

I was dreaming when I suddenly found myself in that darkness again. I could feel that a warm and strong hand took my right hand and tried to drag me into the darkness. I fought against it, but then I felt that "someone else" was pooking me in my waist. That damn pooking that have haunted me since I was child! I got so afraid. It was as if one of them was dragging me in to the darkness and the other one was tickling me so I had hard to fight back. It was scary, I couldn't see anything! Then finally I managed to get released and wake up.

Can anyone explain this for me? Why is it always completly black when I experience these things? I can only FEEL with my whole body, that something strange is going on. And that it isn't just a dream.

I have felt my body locked up in some kind of metal chair (about 3 years ago) and it was like "someone" told me (telepathy) not to fight against it - or I would feel more pain.

I have also felt metal sticks put up in my upper mouth (2008/09). When I began pulling them out, stick by stick, it was as if I passed out. As if I wasn't supposed to be aware of what was going on. Since then I have 3 bulbs in my upper mouth.

It's always in this black reality where I cannot see anything - or anyone! It's very intense but short. It feels like the experience don't even last for a minute.

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For the first time ever, I have now more visitors from Russia than USA. Looks like you guys are very interesting in this kind of stuff :-) 

Disturbed again...

It has been calm for a long time, but this week I have had two paranormal attacs during the night. 

This is what happens:

• My dreams are suddenly interrupted
• I guess I'm in some kind of dream state, but it feels very real. The strange is that it's totaly black around me and I cannot see anything. 
• Then I feel like "something" jumps at my back. It actually it feels like some kind of animal, with the size of a cat or a small monkey. Only ONCE I have seen a glimps of something looking like a huge praying mantis.
• When I feel the poking around my waist it's hard, like "someone" is tickling me. Maybe because it want's my attention. It's really not a kindly toucht.

When was younger I often got paralysed during these events and had hard to wake up. I know that people call this "sleep paralysis", but I think it's something else.

I haven't yet understod why this happens. If there is a trigger, if it's something that I do that causes these events. But, this last week I have been reading some blogs again about UFOs and owls. It always happens strange things when I do that. And today when I meditated I got that beeping in my left ear again.

In my childhood I often experienced strange things right before I feel asleep. It felt as I fell into a huge spiral and everything just went round and round.

I wonder if the things I have experienced have something to do with the chakras, if they work as portals to other dimensions. Maybe the chakras are like galaxies and that they sometimes get "activated" so you get connected to other worlds?

Psychic attack through the chakras?

Tonight it happend again, someone was  poking hard in my back. 

This has happend so many times, since I was just a little child. It feels like someone is attacking me while I'm sleeping. Most of the time I cannot see anything, just feel that very unpleasant feeling of someone/something poking  in my back or waist. Like they are trying to dig into my body. Actually, it feels like some kind of psychic attack/astral abuse.

Once I could hear and percieve a huge praying mantis jumping on my back. It only lasted for some seconds, then it was gone. Another time I heard a woman and a mans voice. But most of the time I cannot see or hear anything, it's just that very unpleasant feeling of someone/something touching my back.

A psychic woman told me that these beings (doing this) comes from other dimensions. She also believed that we have portals to other worlds - in our bodies. Maybe our chakras works as portals? And maybe we are more vulnerable while sleeping or doing meditation.

Anyone else who has experienced this?

Visited again?

This last week I have experienced some strange stuff again. 

I have had ringings in my ears, repeatedly during the weekend. Then waking up with two bruises just above my knees. Then I got a puncture mark on my left hand, similar to this one. 

Yesterday, when I went to bed I suddenly got a unpleasant feeling and my heart began pumping faster. I thought; why am I feeling afraid? After reading a book in bed I went up to have a glass of water. It was dark in the rest of the apartment. Then suddenly, when I was standing in the kitchen, the small lamp in my bedroom was switched off! And the way it was turned off was so strange, it went off so slowly and without that click-sound. I got a bit scarred, but went back to the bedroom and swiched the light on again.

Anyway, I was tired and fell asleep. About 03:00 AM I woke up having a nightmare about our familys old holiday house, where I haven't been for 20 years. In the dream I was in my parents bedroom, starring at the evening sky behind the curtains. I was a little child again. I could see the moonlight and another very bright light coming closer, and it didn't feel good at all. 

I woke up with my heart beating hard. What the hell is it with that place, why do I have so many nightmares about that house? I haven't been there for many years, but still I have nightmares about it. 

Today everything feels normal again, no new bruises or ear ringings.

In another world

Wow, this dream was really the weirdest dream I ever had. It lasted for about 25 minutes and I thought I would never come back to this world again.

Well it was a crazy evening yesterday. I had some hard discussions with my daughter and ended upp in bed angry, wondering why so many people seems to be so heartless, having no empathy for others. I ended up in bed, making a drawing of my thoughts. Like a cobweb with sketches of people in my life. Just a few of them had that red, warm heart. The rest had no heart at all.

When I had turned of the light I remembered when I could see behind closed eyes, so I tried to do that. It didn’t work. Instead of that grey shadowlike silhouttes I could see darkness and some light spots, like stars… then I drifted away into the dream world.

Suddenly I was at a strange place, some kind of working place. Dark walls, dark floor, dark ceiling, no windows. People in front of computers. I could see that some of them (everybody?) had no legs below the knees.  Amputee? And when I looked closer at their faces and spoke to them I couldn’t figure out if they were men or women. They looked androgynous.

I went to another room, very light. Lamps in the ceiling. White walls. I remeber shelves with some kind of medicine or substance. Yellow and black labels. Everything was so clear. I have glasses but in this dream my sight was like an eagles. I could read on all labels without my glasses. And that made me scarred. This dream was so clear, so detailed. It couldn’t be a dream! This must be the reality. But I couldn’t wake up. I was still in that room and it didn’t feel good at all. Why couldn’t I wake up! Then I thought; ”Oh my God! I must have had a stroke and my brain is not working!  I am lost here!”
  
I understood that the people I saw was not like normal people, they were more like computers. They had no life without working.  When that hit me I was ”taken”. I could not move, but I felt like hundreds of metal wires were shot into my body, into my arms, feets and legs. It was like my blood path was replaced with these wires in different sizes. I became a machine, like the others… I felt no pain, but I could feel all that things shot into my body.

About 20-25 minutes later I woke up, with my heart bumping hard. Scared. Gosh! What a nightmare! I have never experienced something so clear in my dreams!

In the vibrational state?

Tonight I have had a very strange experience AND strange dreams.

Yesterday I was so sad, because of my daughter, and I had hard to fall asleep.

Then, suddenly, I felt my whole body start to vibrate. I got so afraid, I thought I was going to die! The vibration was so intense and I felt that I had to brake it. I tried to scream. Next moment I have a strange dream about beeing locked in with an insane man and beeing in some kind of institution. My feet were battered and full of wounds. And I didn't know how I ended up there, or who I was. A really scary dream. Two other strange, but very detailed dreams followed.

When I woke up I understood that I probably had been in a vibrational state (in my energy body)  just before that dream. You can get into this state before you have an OBE (Out of Body Experience).  But I guess my fear prevented me from going further. Next time I will try not to be afraid and go with the flow/vibration...

Related links
How to Achieve Vibrational State: Your Step by Step Guide  
A Complete Guide to Astral Projection


 

Visited again

A couple of days ago I realized that something strange was going on - and tonight I was visited in my bedroom.

Last week I came home from hospital after another operation.  (I had to fix a gastrointestinal hernia after my cancer operation a couple of years ago). Since then I have had a lot of pain and I have also noticed strange things at home. Feeling that "coldness" that I've felt before, when I was haunted. I have also felt a strange shiver against my legs.

Yesterday I went to bed early, I was tired and I fell asleep almost at once. 

Suddenly I felt that poking on my right side. I was so tired so I tried not to care about it. The poking went to my left side. I was so tired but I tried to say; "Go away, leave me alone!". But the poking became more intense.

I got up. Tried to switch the light on, but it didn't work. And suddenly I realized; this have happend so many times before; that i wake up in the darkness, feeling that something is there, I am scared and try to turn the lights on - but I can't! I cannot turn the lights on!!

I go to the window, pull the thick curtains apart and - I'm chocked. My usual view over city is gone and I stare into another landscape! It's night but I cannot see the lights from the city - because outside there are only threes and some stars!

Oh... Then I realize... I am at our old country house! In my bedroom! I turn around and walk down the hall. Through the glassdoor to our dining room I see a very bright light coming from outside. What's that!!

Then I wake up. Shaky. I go up. Take a glass of water in the kitchen. Realize that it has started again, the visitors that comes during the night and poke me. The visitors that I cannot see. I go back to the bedroom. It's about 11 PM and I grab a book. I read it for about an hour, then I fall asleep again. When I woke up the next day I noticed that the clock beside my bed showed the wrong time (- 2 hours). Strange, it has been calm for several months and now suddenly it's like it has started all over again.

Update:
Two days later I visited my therapist. She did some body work on me. She said that the operation made me "open up" again. She managed to "close the door" and now it's calm again. No visitors. 

Visited by a witch from another dimension?

Weird things are happening again.

Last month, in May, I went on a business trip to another city. The first night at the hotel room I had a very strange dream. I dreamed that I entered some kind of Gift Shop. I looked around and then I noticed that a woman (the salesclerk) was walking towards me. I was just going to ask her something, when suddenly - she, and the surroundings, changed. I saw light blue colors and something that looked like a face just centimeters from my eyes. I could only see the shape of the eyes, no pupils. And no other details, no mouth, no hair. Everything was just light blue. And I heard a laugh, like from a witch.

I don't know why, but I started calling: "Give it back to me! Give it back to me!"
Then I woke up.

The next day the lavatory pan in my hotel room broke. Two days later my neighbur called me up:


"Eva, I am sorry but your lavatory pan has broken. There are lots of water in your apartment - and in ours!"

How often does things like that happen? Both my lavatory pans broke almost at the same day! And after that strange dream, with that laughing witch voice...

Bad energy from my mum
When I came home I visited my therapist. I said I was so tired of all the bad luck in my life. My friends feel sorry for me and says that they doesn't know anyone else who has so much misfortune. So I asked my therapist again; how can it be possible? Why does so many bad things happen to me!?

She said she didn't know, but later during the same session she talked about my mother again. Because she found more bad energy from my mother in my body. It was lots of bad feelings; hate, frustration and bitterness. Feelings from my mother that had encapsulated in my body.

My therapist said there were connections to another dimension and that "they" were feeding on my mothers unpleasant feelings. She talked about very light, sticky vibrations as she took some kind of energy ball out from my body. I felt so relieved! I went from depressed to happy, just in seconds!

I left my therapist and went home. That evening I heard several high pitched beep tones in my ears. I tried to block them out, they went away - and came back. Over and over again. Finally it stoped.

Do we have portals to other dimensions - in our bodies?

My back seems to be a weak and strange spot. During my life I have experienced many weird stuff connected to it.

I think I have written about it before; that I have experienced strange "touching" while asleep. It has been going on for as long as I can remember. 

It happens while I'm asleep. Suddenly I get paralysed and cannot see. At the same time I can feel a presence in the room and "someone" is poking me in my waist and back, with a finger (?). It really feels terrible. I cannot defend myself against that poking. Only if I manage to wake up.

Other times I have dreamed that I got stabbed in my back. Or that someone had stuck a needle in it. Very painful. Other times I have felt (and heard!) a huge grasshoppers jumping on my back (in 2011/2012).

I have been working on this during my hypnosessions and it seems like we can have portals to other dimensions IN OUR BODIES! Yes, it's crazy, but I have experienced huge different after my therapist has managed to close it/them.

I think that when we experience some kind of trauma we get wounds in our etheric body. And I think that these wounds can work like portals to other dimensions. If we manage to deal with our past traumas, we can heal these wounds and - close the portals. This is my guess.

It has been calm here for a long time, but just about a week ago it started all over again. I had a strange dream about an old, not so nice, woman. We had an argument and suddenly I felt as if someone had pulled his/hers/its finger all the way down on my back. The next day I had scratch marks on my fingers again. So I guess "they" are back... maybe because a portal had opened up again.

Have you experienced something like this? Parts of your body that seems to get attacked while your are asleep?
  

Hiding from intruders

Today I found some of my old diarys from 2004-2006, so I have spent hours reading them.

One of the things that surpriced me was what I wrote 3 days after my father had died, in 2005. I had almost forgotten it:

"This morning I woke up by a nightmare at 3:05 AM. I dreamed that I was a child again and it was night. I was standing in our living room. I heard the sound from a helicopter and it looked like its spotlights were searching around our windows. I got the impression that it was aliens, coming to get us. I ran into my parents bedroom, telling them not to open their eyes and that they should hide under the bed sheets. Then I crawled down between them. I could feel my fathers body on my left side and my mothers on my right side. Then I felt that "someone" came into the bedroom. I tried to scream: "Go away!!". But my mouth was paralysed, I couldn't scream. That's when I woke up."

I think this was the first time ever I wrote about aliens - and I had totally forgotten about that dream. Now it all came back.

It also reminds me of 2008-2009, when I lived in that haunted apartment - because I often heard helicopters during the night. I was just to tired to care about it. I never got up to look at them, I just guessed that it was police or ambulance helicopters.

Could that dream about the introuders be some kind of memory from an abduction in my childhood?

Screen memories

Actually I am not surpriced. Always when I have been active here on my blog or on Youtube (watching UFO/Alien videos) I get problems.

Tonight I had a very strange "dream". I dreamed that a person I know wanted to kiss me, so I let it happen. But the kiss wasn't nice. It was like some kind of animal was kissing me - brutally with no emotions at all. And this person (?) wanted me to look into his eyes. It was violent and I pushed him away. Next moment all went black.

As soon as I woke up I felt deep inside that something was very wrong. I have experienced something similar before and I got wounded... My opinion is that it's screen memories. What I saw was not true. Something happend, but there was something else behind the mask.

And when I got up this morning I had a new scratch mark on my right hand. So no daubt about it, they are still here - and it makes me so angry! It's like living in a Matrix, we are captured and raped over and over again. But we just don't understand it. Because we don't believe in what we experience during our sleep. We just believe in what we can see with our eyes open. As my friend Sandra said a year ago; it's like a huge Swedish smorgasbord where they are feeding on us.

Well, time to go out for a walk and think about something else :-)

 

Sleepless since childhood

As long as I can remember I have had sleeping problems. I have never slept a whole night and I wake up at least once every hour. But since my last therapy session I have slept much better. 

As a child I was very afraid of the darkness in my bedroom. I remember that I could feel a presence. I also remember laying in my bed, paralysed with closed eyes feeling that "something" poked me in my waist. I have also felt a strange pressure over my back. I told my mum about it, but she just said that it was normal. Normal? I don't think so!

The Nightmare, painted by John Henry Fuseli (1741-1825)

Actually, I now think that the strange things I experienced as child were Alien connected. 

Last night when I was thinking of this, I felt a sudden push in my waist, where that strange "etheric transmittor" was removed. Then pain, like a needle was stuck in my waist. And every time I had a thought about these strange childhood memories the pain came back! But when I begun thinking about my work - the pain went away.  

This morning, in the shower, I began thinking about my childhood memories again and immediatly the pain in my waist came back! Why? Do I get punished for my thoughts about aliens? This is so weird!

Did my mum see an alien orb?

Today I have been watching some videos at You Tube, called "UFO Hunters". Very interesting, especially those about UFOs and orbs.

They talked a lot about glowing orbs, often shown up in the mountains. And that it seems to be a connection between those orbs and aliens. It reminded my of an experience that my mother had told me about.

When my mother was young, I think it was during the 1940s, she climbed in the mountains, in the Alps. Once she stayed in a small cabin during some thunder storms and when she opened the door something that looked like a big ball of fire came right to her, through the door. She got so scared that she fainted. And when she woke up the ball was gone. Since that day she has been very afraid of thunder storms.

As long as I can remember my mother have had nightmares and been taking sleeping pills.When I did that "birth regression" with my therapist a year ago she said some really weird things that I have hard to believe. But it was about my mother, me and aliens.

Today I wonder if it maybe was some kind of alien orb that my mother saw that day in the mountains.
Maybe she have had some kind of alien connection all her life?

Also my father have been haunted by nightmares for many years. He is dead now but my mother told me that he often woke up in the middle of the night screaming that "they" where after him, trying to kill him... Did he dream about aliens maybe?

And then my brother. He also had lots of nightmares and was afraid of doctors. He was with me twice when I saw UFOs from our balcony in1977-78. He even took pictures of it.

Maybe my whole family have alien connections?

 

Scared of darkness

When I was a child I was so afraid of darkness. I always slept with my head under the coat/cover and I tried not to breath, not to move - because then "they" maybe would belive that I was dead and leave me alone. Because I was sure that "something" was in my room.

I remember that I once woke up under my bed, not remebering how I got there.

I have had many nightmares about being in a dark room and desperatly trying to turn the light on, but the switches doesn't work. But this wasn't only nightmares. Maybe they were true? Once my mother found me in bed with the lamp in bed. It had been hanging on the wall, so she was surpriced to find it in my bed.

My mother also found me in bed sometimes with nose bleed.

This last year I have been wondering if this could be signs of me beeing abducted.

Update:Just when I had written this and logged out from Blogger - I got that strange beep signal in my ear again. But I am not surpriced, writing about abductions... This happens almost everytime I write or talk about aliens and abductions. No doubt that I am being watched, but I go on trying to block the signal out, letting it bounce away from me. It seems like it works. But the next time the signal is weaker. So, "they" don't stop, they just change the signal a bit every time hoping that I won't notice it. But I do, and I get angry every time - because it doesn't stop.