It's getting worse...

This morning I got a new scratch mark, just under a nail on my left hand:

And just a short while ago I got a new one - on the other hand:

During this weekend I have been hearing strange sounds in my apartment again, as I did in the old one. It sounds like someone moves around things on the floor around my vaccum cleaner thats I have left in my living room.

It has been calm for long now, but now it feels like it is getting worse again.Why? Because I forced myself to visit my mother? Or is it because I right now am suffering from some kind of real bad pain in my body (around my pelvis) that makes me so exhausted. Weaker chakra?

Well I don't know, I just know "they" are around me again - and they are NOT frendly...

Does strong feelings make us more vulnerable?

On Thuesday I went to see my mother. I really didn't want that, because our relationship has never been good, but... I felt that I had to. And afterwards - I got problems again.

I felt as my whole body was against it, but you know... somtimes we just do things we don't want, to help others.

My relationship with my mother has never been good. She has done a lot of bad things to me during my life and there were many years when we didn't have any contact at all.Today she is over the 80ies but still she has much anger inside. She wants to be in the center of the world, all the time, and if other people don't give her the confirmation she wants - well then she can get very angry. Actually I thing her anger is her driving force in life.

My terapist, who had helped me with that multidimensial therapy, has warned about having contact with my mother. She has told me that the scratches I have are connected to my mother. And I also have been told things about beeings from other dimensions and their contact with my mother.Well I have had very hard to belive in all that. But maybe she is right, because it's like my mum sucks all energy out of me every time we meet. And it's like I pick up her bad energy and become frustrated and angry myself when I meet her.

Well, this time I brought with me some food and other stuff - but she made me so frustrated that I ended up with headache and like flashes in my eyes (Migrane?). So I (and my daughter) left her apartment rather qucikly.

Just 30 minutes later I got a scratch mark on one of my fingers and shortly after my daughter got a scratch mark too.

So how does it work? Does strong feelings (like anger and frustration) make us like magnets to bad energies/beeings from other dimensions? Or does those feelings just make us more vulnerable? Maybe the visit at my mums house made my aura weaker? Well, again I have found that strong feelings are connected to these paranormal attacs.

Three in a row

Last Sunday I woke up with these marks on my right leg, close to the foot. I felt the pain as soon as my feet touched the floor. I was so surpriced, could I really have done this to myself during sleep? Or did I get it while I walked in the wood the day before?

And look at the 3 dots. I have seen that markings before, on myself and on my daughter. But they were smaller then, just like acupuncture marks.

The 3 dots reminds me of Orion's Belt, that I have seen a lot during this winter.

 

Healing old trauma

I have got many questions about the therapy I have been going through since August 2010, so today I will write some about that.

Well, my therapist call it Multidimensional therapy and it is very difficult to discribe it shortly. But it is much about healing the past. She has used hypnotherapy sometimes, but most of the time we just talk and after that she starts working on my body - on different levels. My therapist is a phsychic person who easily can see what's on my mind and that helps a lot. I guess we can say that she use her "third eye".

I have done "Birth regression" and that was very interesting.

The strangest things that had come up has been connected to that alien stuff. Like that picture of me laying on a table with aliens around... I still have difficult to connect to that, it's just to unbelievable. But my body says it's true...

She has also taken lots of things out of my body, like alien implants and - feelings. Things that have been holding me back. Sometimes it is hard to believe in it, but I really feel that it works. It makes a huge different afterwards.

I have learned how much childhood trauma can effect your daily life. But also that you can go back and heal it. I still work on this and I still have much strong feelings connected to the past and my mother. There is a lot of anger. But even if this is hard work it has made me so much stronger. It has also helped me to handle all that paranormal stuff that has been happening to me. If you have "wounds" from your childhood - it will make you more vulnerably to paranormal attacs from other dimensions. But healing the past (and becoming aware of the existens of beeings from other dimensions) makes you stronger. If you are not aware, well then you will be like a Swedish Smorgasboard! :-)

Have your read Alberto Villoldos book about Shamanic healing? I just love that book! Maybe it's because I always been so interested in indians and healing. What I would like to say is that the therapy that I am using is very much like the work that shamans do.