Almost dragged into the darkness

About 3 weeks ago I went through another surgery. The night before that I had a strange experience again.

It began in the same way as it always does;

I was dreaming when I suddenly found myself in that darkness again. I could feel that a warm and strong hand took my right hand and tried to drag me into the darkness. I fought against it, but then I felt that "someone else" was pooking me in my waist. That damn pooking that have haunted me since I was child! I got so afraid. It was as if one of them was dragging me in to the darkness and the other one was tickling me so I had hard to fight back. It was scary, I couldn't see anything! Then finally I managed to get released and wake up.

Can anyone explain this for me? Why is it always completly black when I experience these things? I can only FEEL with my whole body, that something strange is going on. And that it isn't just a dream.

I have felt my body locked up in some kind of metal chair (about 3 years ago) and it was like "someone" told me (telepathy) not to fight against it - or I would feel more pain.

I have also felt metal sticks put up in my upper mouth (2008/09). When I began pulling them out, stick by stick, it was as if I passed out. As if I wasn't supposed to be aware of what was going on. Since then I have 3 bulbs in my upper mouth.

It's always in this black reality where I cannot see anything - or anyone! It's very intense but short. It feels like the experience don't even last for a minute.

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For the first time ever, I have now more visitors from Russia than USA. Looks like you guys are very interesting in this kind of stuff :-) 

Nadine Lalich's experiences

Today I found this interesting video with Nadine Lalich:

Seems like we share many experiences:

• She describes the feeling of one alien touching her back/spine, something that I have experienced many times. It feels like my back/spine is my weakest body part when it comes to this kind of events. (I think it can work like some kind of portal.)
• She also have had "dreams" about airports with military personel and UFOs.
• She has had scars on her arms like me.
• Bleeding nose. (I got that during many nights as a child)
• She has also heard that humming sound. I had it in my old apartment.
• We both have had dreams about descruction and cathastrophes in the future.
• We see numbers like 1111 appearing on nearby clocks.
• We saw UFOs at the age of 16.
• We have had dreams about children. (But mine didn't look alien.)

While writing this post I have had beeping tones in my left ear...

New scratch mark

Three days ago I went to my therapist for a healing session. As soon as I entered her clinic I got a small scratch mark on a finger. I guess "someone" doesn't like when I dig in these strange events.

We talked about my memories of strange examinations. Why do I feel that something is going on in my "Dreams", but I cannot see anything? That is so strange. Why is everything black? My therapist asked me if I thougt I have blocked that out from my memory or - if I'm not allowed to see. I don't know, but maybe "they" just don't want me to know what they are doing?


Update:
Oops! Published at 11:11. Here we have those numbers again!
 

What have they done to me!?

Since that last session at my therapist, when she removed that unpleasant energy ball (from my mum) I have felt so relieved and happy. But four days ago I had a new nightmare.

In the dream I visited some kind of underground aquarium with my daughter. We were in a huge, dark room and my daughter went across that room to look at another aquarium. But when I was going to follow her I walked in to black FOG! Everything went black and I couldn's see anything at all!

In the darkness something, with metal, held me so tight that I couldn't move. I felt as if I was in some kind of sitting/hanging position. I could feel hard metal under my armpits. It was painful. I could also feel hard metal in the hollow of my knees. As I tried to move I got more stuck and it became more painful. It was as if I was told mentaly that I shouldn't move - then it wouldn't be so painful. So I just sat/hung there, without moving. And then I don't remember anything more.

The next day I was so tired, and the happiness I had felt the days before was gone.

What happend?!! And why does this strange things keep on happening, again and again? Completly blackness, but I FEEL that something is going on around me. And I can feel that hard metal! But what kind of entites are doing this to me - and WHY!?

Am I just in some kind of evil experiment?
 

Hiding from intruders

Today I found some of my old diarys from 2004-2006, so I have spent hours reading them.

One of the things that surpriced me was what I wrote 3 days after my father had died, in 2005. I had almost forgotten it:

"This morning I woke up by a nightmare at 3:05 AM. I dreamed that I was a child again and it was night. I was standing in our living room. I heard the sound from a helicopter and it looked like its spotlights were searching around our windows. I got the impression that it was aliens, coming to get us. I ran into my parents bedroom, telling them not to open their eyes and that they should hide under the bed sheets. Then I crawled down between them. I could feel my fathers body on my left side and my mothers on my right side. Then I felt that "someone" came into the bedroom. I tried to scream: "Go away!!". But my mouth was paralysed, I couldn't scream. That's when I woke up."

I think this was the first time ever I wrote about aliens - and I had totally forgotten about that dream. Now it all came back.

It also reminds me of 2008-2009, when I lived in that haunted apartment - because I often heard helicopters during the night. I was just to tired to care about it. I never got up to look at them, I just guessed that it was police or ambulance helicopters.

Could that dream about the introuders be some kind of memory from an abduction in my childhood?

Looking inside my own body

Today I listened to Starborn Support Radio. Always very interesting to listen to people who have had similar experiences.

A woman talked about her experince of travelling inside her sons body, which reminds me of a dream I had in 2008. I dreamed that I was inside my own vagina! Yes I know, that sounds VERY weird. It was as if I just was a small molecyle and thought; "Well, this is strange - a vagina should not look like this!" I have studied medicine and I know that at the end of the vagina is the cervix - but it was gone!

Four years later I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Only one ovarian had cancer, but the doctors wanted to be sure that all cancer was gone so they took out both - and the cervix. So, today I look inside as I did in that dream six years ago. Just a coinsident? Or is this something that many abductees/contactees experience; travelling inside bodies - and to the future?

A similar thing happend Before I gave birth to my daughter. I had a dream that showed exactly what actually happend 4-5 months later when she was born. All details, my fear, the people running beside the stretcher in that hospital corridor, even the lamps were the same. EVERYTHING came true later when we arriwed to the hospital.


 

Is this how "they" work?

Wow, this is my 100 post! :-) Something to celebrate maybe?

Well, watch this interesting video about aliens and abductions. Much fits in to my own experiences and thoughts about it:
 

Sleepless since childhood

As long as I can remember I have had sleeping problems. I have never slept a whole night and I wake up at least once every hour. But since my last therapy session I have slept much better. 

As a child I was very afraid of the darkness in my bedroom. I remember that I could feel a presence. I also remember laying in my bed, paralysed with closed eyes feeling that "something" poked me in my waist. I have also felt a strange pressure over my back. I told my mum about it, but she just said that it was normal. Normal? I don't think so!

The Nightmare, painted by John Henry Fuseli (1741-1825)

Actually, I now think that the strange things I experienced as child were Alien connected. 

Last night when I was thinking of this, I felt a sudden push in my waist, where that strange "etheric transmittor" was removed. Then pain, like a needle was stuck in my waist. And every time I had a thought about these strange childhood memories the pain came back! But when I begun thinking about my work - the pain went away.  

This morning, in the shower, I began thinking about my childhood memories again and immediatly the pain in my waist came back! Why? Do I get punished for my thoughts about aliens? This is so weird!

"We are your masters..."

Yesterday they were discovered - the beings that have been messing with me my whole life...

Since I began reading, and writing, about the abduction researcher Dr David Jacobs (about 2 weeks ago) I have had problems with scratch marks again. My daughter too. So I guess "they" want to scare me. They don't want me to know what's going on.

Yesterday I visited my therapist again and I told her that I was so tired of feeling that "someone" is controlling my life, I have been very aware of this since 2008. I also told her that I have been working hard with my TRE exercises and that it fells like the pieces in the puzzle is coming together.

This is what we found during the session yesterday:

There are some kind of beings (they are 3) that says they are my "masters", that my body and soul belongs to them! They say that they are controling my life and that I won't be able to walk or stand without them. That I would be paralysed in the lower part of my body without them.

Interesting that they finally showed up. And interesting because I actually have had  some strange dreams about not beeing able to stand up, and about hanging in a closet with the lower part of my body missing...

I wonder if this is the robotic types of beings that she has told me about before. I do remember hearing robotics voices in my head at least once when I was child, and that I told my nanny about it. And remember that screaming robotic voice last month - that both me and my daughter hear in my mobile phone.

I know, this sounds crazy, I really belive that there are other dimensions - and other beings. Otherwise I wouldn't have had all these strange experiences.

My therapist worked with my body and found some kind of etheric transmittor/implant (not visible) in my stomach, on the left side. She also found what seemed to be some kind of etheric (not visible) cabels from my back. Wow! Just a couple of days ago I had a dream about that, that I had 2 thick black cables hanging from my back! Reminds me of that sceen in the Matrix Movie. So... are we living in some kind of Matrix? With aliens all around us?

During the session I also got some other memories from my childhood, that were not so nice. But there are still some thing real scary that I cannot remember. My body remembers it  and start shaking, but it's like my brain and body are not connected. I just cannot remember what made me so scared.

So, I will go on with my multidimensial therapy and see what I find. And if those three beings will leave me alone  now... I don't think they will give up that easy.


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Strange memory

Last week I experienced something strange, I think it was some kind of memory...

I was going to a meeting with two collegues and we were going there by car. I jumped in to the back seat of my collegues car (I think it was a SAAB 9-5 2011) when I suddenly almost got panic.

The window in the back seat, where I sat, was smaller that those I'm used to, and dark. And the ceiling felt somehow to close. It almost freaked me out! My heart started pumping, it was so weird. I had no idea at all why I felt so scared. It was as if it reminded me of sitting in something small, with not much space around and with just a small window. A very claustrofobic feeling.

I have thought much about it since. Could it have something to do with my other paranormal experiences? A memory of an alien abduction? Did the window remind me of an UFO-window? Maybe I will find out more in the future?


Update:
Today I found these two cars on Brigitte Barcleys website. It reminds me of the feeling I got in my collegue's car. Dark cars like 1949 Mercury give me strange feelings. Did I get a flash from an earlier life, from the late 1940 or -50? Or does this special design remind me of something completly different?